lust for everything

from very begining i was confused that how and why to choose ,can i have every option with me like can i play every game like tt, badminton, cricket, football,etc; can i be good in every subject like maths and history ,but somehow i managed to come out of school with these confusions but in college where for prooving very little we have to give our very best due to competitions and very volatile position for everything the problems were what type of friends should i have ,should i be studious, should i make projects, and participate in various events, look forward for sports or not, should i limit my enjoyment.

And in all these i found that due to inability to choose one from many i affected every aspect of my life like i can't put my identity for anything ; studies affected my projects, table tennis affected badminton,friends can't understand me, as a whole i always have been half for everything and can't give my best for anything and i just keeping on changing restlessly for whole my life.

So who says that change is life now standing at this stage of my life i think that to do something we have to stop ourselves from changing ,change is not life ,life means to stay and grow up, be sure that one day this thing will put me to a corner where very few has reached that is the place i was meant for so no matter how small the start is i will do my best for that .hoping for best in my life and trying to remove the words EVERYTHING and CHANGE from my life.